Gummmy Bears

i dunno what it is about gummy bears...but they are deeply satisfying...hmmm i don't know what it is about eating those little guys but it just like makes me feel like frikin godzilla in tokyo munchin on the little citizens of bearville....haha i'm so wierd

but yeah i'm just gunna do a blog...its not good but whatevs i'm borreeeddd
ok so my mom and i have some deep ass convo's in her car..i don't know who dubbed her car the place of zen and wisdom but whenever we're in the car alone it always comes outhmm...well anyway i wanted to talk about how in the pursuit of happyness, the main character Chris Gardner (a.k.a. will smith = HOTTT SMOKIN HOT SEXYY HOTNESS) umm sells his blood in order to make some cash after he pretty much loses all his money. yeah that itself is sad enough and like made me think about poverty in a whole new way...but then my dad goes and tells me that he did the same thing....a couple seconds later i'm crying like crazyyy =( yeah it is not fun

after that my mom and i were talking in the car as per usual and i knew my parents had it bad but i never imagined it could be that bad...it just like opened my eyes and made me realize how much my parents went through to get to where they are now...i mean its really inspirational as cheesy as that sounds but honestly my parents came here with not a dime in their pockets and no parents to help and support them. they barely know the language and somehow they manage. they mangage to raise me and my brother all the while being their for us in everything that we do without anyones help. and now my dad is one of the most respected chiropractors in the korean community in va....god if i respect anyone in my life its gotta be my parents

it really made me sad to see how freaking selfish i am...=( oh poo i think life is made of just a bunch of sacrificesit just seems that everything you do sacrifices something elseit seems like to in order to grow and mature you have to go through helllike humans just can't learn as fast the easy wayand if you don't have to grow and mature and have an easy lifethen later on you get lazy and unappreciativei saw a documentary on tv the other day iit was about this small family of a father and his son and daughter and they had horrible living conditions and the dad had to work ridiculous hours, but by the end of the day they were just happy and thankful that they had each other.i often tell myself that i wouldn't have too hard of a time living without the luxuries of my life and live like that family...but i don't fully realize how much i just take for grantedwell this kinda made me feel disappointed in myself...but i guess i'll just take it and try my best to change
:)