i absolutely hate the feeling of...

• thinking i have all the time in the world and looking at the clock in horror to see that i actually have no time at all
• having prickly legs...-_-
• being hot even AFTER i've removed all articles of clothing that is allowed/respectable haha
• the feeling of insects or any little things crawling on me
• knowing that i'm missing something but i can't figure out what
• forgetting where i put something when i know that the place i put it in was somewhere i could find easily the next time....ugh
• people poking or pinching my fat...(well its not too bad :D )
• knowing i totally BOMBED a quiz/test
• knowing that i disappointed someone
• knowing that i failed in any way shape or form
• hurting the feelings of or disappointing one of the people i love the most

say you will :D

yayyy!!! happiness! today was a fairly good monday as far as mondays go :D

did ok on apush test...not THAT ok on spanish test but its fine. and had a hilarious time watching a vid on f. scott fitzgerald in engrish haha :)

after school andrew, kristie, y yo were gonna do this read to lead thing @ local elementary school, but we couldn't cuz the Principal was busy :(

anyhoo we leave the school and go to seven eleven to get some gas. at the pump lil' midge goes...

"dude those guys look like rapists over yonder!" haha and i look and see these shadyish guys comin outta a BIG ASS van. she continues to insinuate that the guys were rapists when i send her out to do my bidding and throw away some trash. she's all "rape her first rape her first!" haha but then one of the guys in the van starts STARING AT ME like...its borderline rapist face

and me being the stupid girl i start to mirror his face and wave like a maniac. he then proceeds to wave back even more ferociously! one thing lead to another and all of a sudden it was crazed fangirl "OMG LIKE OMG ARE YOU GUYS LIKE IN A BAND?!?!" and he was all "YEAH YOU GUYS WANT SOME FREE CD'S?!" and we're all " OMG YEAH CAN WE HAVE PICTURES TOO?!" and it was just all well and glorious. the band's name was Say You Will and we took pics. :) they asked us where they were and told us they were going to Richmond. as i got back in the car he commented on my shoes :) (my ballin' sara quin macbeth's yeahhhh!). we then proceeded to blast their music as they joyously danced along.

we exited seven eleven and left feeling as though we met celebrities :D

it was a fun time.

it might not have gone EXACTLY like this....but its pretty darn close :)

squirtle can vouch for me!

hmm...

Kindness

Its easy to fake.

I’m the master at it.

I like to think that at least 50% is legit,

But I’m not so sure about the other 50%.

Its so easy to be kind to people I just meet,

But oddly, not so easy to be kind to the people I love

Especially when they need it.

I want to be the kind of person who is known for their honest kindness,

And not just use it as a mask to make a good first impression

Someone with a 100% pure heart.

Slowly but surely I’m trying to change mine.

ughhhhh

life is not easy

=(

apush is harddd

math is harddd

have b+ in both and it don't seem 

to want to change...

but they must

so that i won't go to china

this is poop

and on top of that 

startin to feel insecure

about where my life is headed

that sol essay i wrote about college

is doing wonderss for my self esteem

i wish i tried harder earlier on...

feel like i'm wasting my brains sometimes =/

they came....

the shoes...my beloved...they came :DDDD

AHHHH!!! pure blissss that is what they give me :)

ohhh how i feel sorry for the first mothaeffer to step on em....

LET IT NOT BE YOU!!! 

haha ;D

coralineeee

"Making up a song about Coraline She’s a peach she's a doll she's a pall of mine She's as cute as a BUTTON in the eyes of everyone who ever laid their eyes on Coraline When she comes around exploring Mom and I will never ever make it boring Our eyes will be on coraline"

CUTEST MOVIE EVERRRR my god tim burton and everyone who worked with him to make this movie are freaking incredible!!

=D so yeah i had to watch coraline in 2D....CURSESSSS CURSE YOU STUPID JONAS BROTHERS MOVIE GAHHHHH!!!! yeah so that was poop...but whatever i still sat in that theatre with my 3D glassses like i was some hip cool girl....no i looked like a total nerd but hey! who cares?!

haha so anyhoo i went to see it w/ mariam and my bro and his friend and it was exelente :) mariam and i were making little commentaries that usually consisted of not very nice words which was bad cuz i realized that there were many small children around where we were sitting...haha :) but wutevs it was still great!

i definitely recommend this movie to audiences of ALL ages, because it might seem like a baby movie...but its not!!!

i must say i was a bit frightened at some points in the movie...=/ the other mother was scary goddamnit!! haha yeah but it has a great message...can't figure out whether its "there's no place like home" or "beauty isn't skin deep" or it could be something along the lines of "there is beauty in the ugliest of places"? well it's pretty much all of those cliches...but its still good...so yeah

GO WATCH IT NOWWWWW!!! :D

vicious circles

AHHHHHHHH!!! ok i'm officially going CRAZY cuz i want these shoes sooo friggen bad...its so sad...its gotten to the point where i'm coming home from school and just staring longingly at my confirmation email from journeys when i KNOW that its backordered until friday....ughhh ima go insaneeeee until i have these shoes...ugh sadnesss

anywaysss!!!!

yeah so i kinda forgot the point of this blog. it was basically to give kudos to the person who thought of the phrase "vicious circle"

when caught in circles, they can indeed be vicious!

like for example, when my parents are being mean to me, i try to avoid them as any normal human would do, but when i go to ignore them, they get all mad at me all over again, hence the vicious cycle...-_- yeah it kinda sucksss poop

or like another example is when i really don't wanna start my hw, and i waste time doing stupid things like fbing, then i look at the time and i'm like oh shaiza! its soo late i need to do my hw!, and the cycle starts all over again....

these cycles are just meanies aren't they?

yeahhh soo

OH! i wannna talk bout something i love right quick herrr :)

i LOVE LOVE LOVEE when people mix up their words and then repeat their mixed up words while shaking their head, then proceed to correct themselves haha ;) its the best yo!

for example, i heard someone who meant to say "black bag"

say "bak blag" haha :D and she repeats "bak blag" like she's supremely disappointed 

and then proceeds to correct herself

ahhh it was so funny it made my day :)))

bit random but i just wanted to announce that i am now almost completely accepting of my height and i feel no disadvantage or inferiority in being no taller than five feet ( a lil china girl opened my eyes ) haha

ok i'm way too tired and i don't think i made sense

bye! :D

grass stains

sooo...i'm tired as a mofo but i just wanted to make a blog cuz i haven't in the LONGESSTT of timesss ;)
ummm life's been aight these dayss...apart from the whole grades FIASCOOO that occurred in which many of my friends and myself became grizzoundedd =/ yeah that was NOT funn! anyhoo i've just been chillen like a hoodlum/sistagirl after schooooll goin to different random ass places haha good timesss! other than that i don't got much to complain about...i am really glad that i've become so close to some people at this school. i honestly was nott expecting to be included this fast, this easily, but i had an insider (thanks boo :]) who totally had my back so i'm just really glad and thankful haha
hmmm yess so i was thinking about grass stains today.
i used to get them alllll the damn time
cuz i was outside playing all the damn time haha
but i was thinking about them today. and i realized that its been at least a couple of years since i've gotten one or even thought about it.
this fact makes me a bit sad to be honest =(
ughh i feel like life is going by wayyyy toooo fast
i mean in just a bit more than a year, all of my friends and I will be whisked away off to college to pretty much start our adult livessss!
i really just dont know what to do -_-
this is slightly why i get upset when people rag on me for doing baby things. i knowww i knoww they are baby thingss i'm not STUPIDDD
but honestly why do you think i'm doing them? cuz i really am a baby?
i hope people don't think this
but why i really do it is because i want to hold on to the easy years of life, for as long as i can.
i have the rest of my life to live my life
this may be a bit immature in other's eyes, but in mine this is crucially important
ahhh i don't really know how to explain, but i just really want to hold on a bit longer, rather than join in the scramble to grow up as fast as possible.
say what you will, but i want to continue on doing baby things and getting grass stains

1/11/09

i never thought that anything like this could happen to one of us.
i always saw the drivers ed videos and thought even though these kids are saying the same thing "it'll never happen to us"
its unreal. i can't believe it and i don't want to believe it.
even now...i can't bring myself to poke her back.
even though we went to different schools, we poked each other on facebook
i know that sounds lame or whatever, but everytime i did, i thought of her and how she was doing or what she was up to
you can call our relationship superficial, meaningless, whatever. i don't care what anyone thinks
she was a friend to me, no matter how close.
it still hurts bad.
it still makes me wonder why god would take someone who had so much ahead of her away.
i just don't understand.
i don't understand why it is that even though so many prayed for her, her life was taken away from her.
i don't understand why it is that if i ever press that "poke back" button, i won't ever see a poke on my page from her again...

i like taking baths with my friends...

haha yeah...it sounds really sexual and what not...but its my culture god damn it so stfu ya poops! :) its actually quiteee relaxing and you don't gotta be nakey for gods sake! i mean i don't really feel like exposing myself to strangers either but hey the bath itself is wonderfulllll. and i don't mean bath's like oooh bubbles and soap! i mean bath like hot springsss. mmmm i lovee em! i went to one in korea that had like baths that had naturally scented water and you could just chill in there for however much you want. i have a friend in korea (mirae i love you!!!) and i went with her and her fam. it was the bestttt. you can also go into these little saunas that are like little stone igloos and drink cold drinks, eat hard boiled eggs, and go into the "snow" room to cool off :)
it is truly...a heavenly experience
don't judge! :D
eggs really confuse me...cuz in my harvest moon game...there were definitely "male chickens" ok? i know i know ROOSTERS are male chickens, but how can that be?! they look completely different than chickens...i mean they can even fly and shit! but when the little chickies are hatched they all look the same! so does that mean that boy chickies grow into roosters and girl chickies grow into chickens?...ugh...they make me confused....=/
ughhh i hate when i forget what i wanted to talk about....but oh well i suppose it can't be helped haha. ummm i'm really looking forward to the new game coming out called "mirror's edge" it looks super fun and realistic. and the things the main character does is pretty ballin i must say!
...
btw i almost hit these doushes (sp?) with my car today...haha it was a truly invigorating experience :)
gahhh sometimes i wish i could just chop off my hair and have it short...too bad my face is too chubb and round for dat shit =(
ok well i dunno where i was goin wit dis so
sayonara...suckerss!!!! -who created this phrase exactly? and who created the phrase "happy campers"? huh? cuz i've met some campers in my day and they were the farthest thing from happy....hmmm strange
ok yeah goodbye!